"OH JOY! I'M HOME…"

02

Aug
2011

'OH JOY I'M HOME'

OH JOY!
I'M HOME.....
IT FEELS IMMENSE ......

I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE SO HAPPY TO SEE THE GENERIC BUILDINGS HERE IN LA.....
HELLO RALPH'S,HELLO TARGET HELLO STARBUCKS I'M BACK.....

I'VE JUST WOKEN UP IN MY OWN BED!....9 DOGS VISITING FOR CUDDLES THEN LEAVING THE ROOM
TO GO AND CHASE WHATEVER RANDOM NOISE TAKES THEIR FANCY.....

INTER MILAN V MAN CITY ON THE TELLY. PORRIDGE. VITAMIN DRINK, COFFEE AND A FAG..PERFECT.....

NO SUNSHINE .....IT SEEMS AS THOUGH EUROPEAN WEATHER HAS FOLLOWED US HOME....
I DON'T CARE IT'S STILL PERFECT....

I HAVE "NOTHING" TO DO AND I PLAN ON DOING IT VERY WELL.....(NOTHING EXCEPT WRITE THE NEXT ALBUM!)

THE LAST GIG IN MUNICH?
WELL TRUTH BE TOLD...LOBSTERGATE..DID ME IN ......
FROM THEN ON IN I  HAD NO REAL ENERGY.....

THIS WHOLE TOUR I'VE JUMPED THROUGH THAT SCREEN LIKE A FLAILING BANSHEE...
A YEAR'S WORTH OF HITTING TREADMILLS,HILLS AND FOOTIE PITCHES HAD GIVEN ME THE ENDURANCE NEEDED TO
SPILL MY ENERGY IN EVERY STADIUM WE VISITED....AND I LOVED DOING IT....
FROM BATTLING THE NERVES IN SUNDERLAND TO FINALLY BEING ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE TRUTH AND RELAXING
FROM ABOUT THE 3RD MANCHESTER GIG IN.....

AND I DID SEE THE TRUTH......THE TRUTH BOUNCED WITH ME EVERY SINGLE NIGHT IN LET ME ENTERTAIN YOU
THE TRUTH "FELT THE LOVE"..THE TRUTH SCREAMED WITH ME ,THE TRUTH LAUGHED WITH ME THE TRUTH SANG ANGELS
AT THE TOP OF IT'S VOICE   ...THEN THE TRUTH APPLAUDED MY EFFORTS .....BLISS

THE TRUTH ALSO SAW 5 MEN UNITED IN ONE COMMON GOAL....

FORGIVENESS,REDEMPTION? THAT WAS ALREADY TAKEN CARE OF....

ABSOLUTE ARSE-KICKING SHOW? WELL LEAVE THAT TO US....

WE ALL ROSE TO THE OCCASION..AND THEN SOME
WE ALL TOOK EACH OTHER'S THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS INTO CONSIDERATION....
THEN ACTED UPON THOSE FEELINGS....
WE ALL LOVED EACHOTHER TO THE BEST OF OUR ABILITIES....
FOR ONE WET WONDERFUL SUMMER WE WERE 5 BROTHERS BOUND TOGETHER
BY THE INVISIBLE STRINGS THAT THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES TO PULL WHEN READY AND WHEN NEEDED....
AND OH SHIT! WAS IT NEEDED....

.....WE DID EXACTLY WHAT WE SET OUT TO ACHIEVE
RECORD SELLING...CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED ALBUM....CHECK...
RECORD BUSTING TOUR?...CHECK.....
1.8 MILLION HAPPY FRIENDLIES ?...CHECK.....
THE GHOST OF CHRISTMAS PAST FINALLY LAID TO REST......CHECK!

THIS IS MY TRUTH...ANYTHING ELSE IS WHITE NOISE
ANYTHING ELSE DOESN'T EXIST.....

DEMONS BATTLED? BATTLE WON? CHECK.....
GIVEN EVERYTHING I HAVE EVERY NIGHT?CHECK.....
LETTING IN THE LOVE?CHECK.......
KNOWING THAT I DID A GOOD JOB?...FUCKING CHECK.....
KNOWING NOW WHAT IT IS I HAVE? CHECK....
TRUSTING IT? CHECK.....
WANTING TO GO AGAIN..? CHECK......

THIS IS MY TRUTH......
I/WE/US WON.......

SO,BACK TO MUNICH....SINCE DENMARK…THERE HAS BEEN NOTHING IN MY TANK....
I COULDN'T REALLY FEEL MY LEGS....NO POWER..NO STRENGTH....NO REAL ENERGY
TO BE THE FLAILING BANSHEE THAT I WANTED TO BE....JUST VAPOURS....
DID I PANIC? NO...I RELIED ON THE ENERGY OF THE AUDIENCE...THE ENERGY OF THE 5 BOYS
IN UNISON....
DID MY BODY WRITE A FEW CHECKS THAT IT COULDN'T CASH?YEP....
WILL IT TAKE ME A FEW WEEKS TO FEEL SOME WHAT "NORMAL"…YEP
DO I CARE? NOPE....

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL HAPPENED ON THE EUROPEAN LEG OF THE TOUR...
I LET THE FRIENDLIES CARRY ME.....THANK YOU ONE AND ALL.....

WAS AMSTERDAM A GIG TO EARLY? PROBABLY
DO I REGRET DOING IT? HELL NO..LIKE I SAID ..THE AUDIENCE CARRIED ME THROUGH THE WHOLE EVENING...
SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET AND SOMETHING I WILL ALL WAYS BE GRATEFUL FOR....
WOULD I HAVE DONE THAT GIG IF I WAS TOURING SOLO? I DON'T KNOW
DID I DO IT FOR THE THE OTHER 4 LADS? YES....
DID I DO IT FOR THE FRIENDLIES AGAINST MY BETTER JUDGMENT? AH YEAH....
DID I CRY BEFORE LEAVING THE HOTEL ROOM TO GO THE STADIUM THAT DAY? YEAH....
WAS IT A TESTAMENT TO THE HUMAN SPIRIT...?SHIT YES....

WERE THE BOYS UNHAPPY WITH MY BEHAVIOUR ON THIS TOUR?(SWEARING)
HELL FUCKING NO.....

THERE WAS A MOMENT IN THE DRESSING ROOM JUST BEFORE THE CANCELLED DANISH GIG....
WHEN GARY CAME INTO TO SEE ME AND SAID "DON'T WORRY I'LL DO YOUR BIT" THEN PARODIED MY
EXPLETIVE RIDDEN STATEMENT OF INTENT "ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF! MY NAME IS GARY "BLINKING" BARLOW!"
EVEN WHILST I WAS THROWING UP THAT BROUGHT A SMILE TO MY FACE.....

SO WHAT NOW?

WELL I HAVE (IT SEEMS) A MOUNTAIN OF SONGS TO FINISH LYRICS FOR....
SO MANY TUNES ARE IN A GOOD SHAPE NOW...
MAYBE 30 KNOCKING AROUND AND THAT'S NOT INCLUDING OLD ONES THAT NEVER MADE...R.K.T.V.S

THE FUTURE'S  BRIGHT…..I'M LOOKING AT MY MOST CONSISTENT ALBUM TO DATE....
I HAVE A MONTH TO TIE UP LOOSE ENDS LYRIC-WISE….
I WILL REMEMBER ALL YOUR KIND WORDS ABOUT WHAT MY SONGS MEAN TO YOU
AS I STRUGGLE FOR 8 HOURS OVER ONE RHYMING COUPLET .....THIS SEEMS TO HAPPEN MORE AND MORE OFTEN THESE DAYS...

SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO RIGHT NOW....
BLOGGING AND ANSWERING QUESTIONS WILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR A WHILE
AS I TURN MY ATTENTION TO THE FAVOURITE PART OF MY JOB.....THE SONG WRITING....

THIS WON'T BE THE END OF OUR CONTACT ..I SHALL BE BACK PERIODICALLY
AND WILL KEEP YOU IN MIND ALWAYS....

WE HAVE TO DO A SMALL FRIENDLY TOUR....THAT SEED IS PLANTED....

I'LL BE BLOGGING PHOTOS AND BITS AND PIECES FOR THE TIME BEING....

HASN'T THIS BEEN FUN?
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK WE AS A WHOLE MANAGED TO KEEP THIS EXPERIENCE LIGHT AND FULL OF LOVE....
THAT MEANS IT'S NOT A PROBLEM TO COME BACK AND HAVE A CHAT FACE TO FACE AGAIN....

2000 COMMENTS AND ONLY ONE OR TWO BAD EGGS....
THAT'S PARTICULARLY HEARTY WARMING...A VICTORY FOR THE GENTLES

RIGHT I'M OFF.....JUST BEFORE I GO I LEAVE YOU WITH THIS....

MUCH LOVE FRIENDS XXXXXX