X-FACTOR...

What A Hoot ! loved it...

I wasn't as nervous as i thought i was going to be...Until The friggin sliding door wouldn't open....

Rehearsals went well..Though, Bodies isn't the easiest of songs to perform and getting back into the swing of things has felt somewhat alien. I did feel like "Yeah, i can pull this off"......

Anyway, Back in the dressing room waiting to go on Wasn't the dreadful anxiety fest that i thought it was going to be..
I hung out with the contestants,got my hair did, went and said hello to Simon, had some sushi and waited....

"All right Rob, It's time to go" Back pack's on It's working, Legs feel stable, head's in the right place...let's do it...

For extra confidence i started to hum the theme tune from Rocky in my head.....it was working...So relaxed, So excited, Goosepimply in fact.....

So i'm stood behind the Jumbo screen waiting to go and peacock...Dermot does a lovely introduction "Blah,blah,blah..lovely stuff and niceties...Ladies and gentlemen Robbie Williams!''

At this point in the rehearsals the music starts....The doors open.....BUT LIVE.....The music starts...The Doors don't open..
So we're a few seconds in And the doors remain closed a few more seconds and they're still closed......

Now i don't know if you've ever had 10 million (plus) people ready to judge you on your first performance back in 3 years....
But let me tell you, if the door between you and them isn't opening that's enough to throw you right off your stride..I don't know if you saw but i had to wedge it open myself...That wasn't part of the show..That was pure brute strength and now heavy nerves shifting something that i probably wouldn't be able to move in the cold light of day........

So there's a bad start..I had a whole pose planned and what not.. but that went out of the window...

Anyway i was so thrown that i started saying to myself...."OH GOD,what did God give me? shit Did he give me sunshine or a lay line?OH lord oh lord"
Then the mouth opened and by the grace of the big man himself the right words fell out......Oh praise be! I'm in!....

So after a bizarrely odd start to the 3.30 minutes i started to find my feet.....

The audience were Immense and the Love in the room was palpable......It all felt so electric....Like 3 years of anxiety leaving my body

So happy right now...So pleased...I think the boy's back
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